I cannot express how grateful I am to everyone for your thoughts and prayers. This is the absolute hardest time of my entire life. I will tell you that your prayers did not go unanswered. I have a strength that I did not expect to have in such a situation. Each day I wake up and I thank God that I can get out of bed and actually enjoy this time with family and friends that I have not seen in so long. While my entire world has crashed down on me, it has not broken me. I love John so much, and right now my trust and faith in God has provided a sturdy arm that I can lean against. While I am extremely sad, I feel so comforted. I can actually feel God with me and know that he has no intention of leaving. The verse Philippians 4:13 says, "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." I have heard this verse before and I have always believed it, but now I am actually living it. Every move I have made these past 3 weeks has been from the strength of God and God alone. I've always believed that God will not allow us to go through anything that we cannot handle with His help. How true it is. I have no idea how I am going to live the rest of my life without John right there next to me, but at least with Jesus by my side I know that I can. I wanted to write this thanking everyone for your support and to let you know that I can actually feel your prayers. I don't know how to express my gratitude, but please know that I am so grateful for your prayers and support. Thank you so much.
